Why God has chosen me?

 

Why has God chosen me to be the reflection of His Real Presence in the Holy Eucharist?

I have been truly unworthy to be the sign since I was born out of wedlock. Worse, my father who had a wedded wife had a relationship with my mother at the same time.

God has chosen a sinner like me to be the reflection of His Presence in the Holy Eucharist probably because I have availed of His Divine Mercy.

Out of Divine Mercy, God has called me.

In the mid-1990's, I was so afflicted with a worsening eczema then spreading throughout my legs and feet. I had difficulty walking because of this. I was almost bedridden but I had to seek intercession from the "Divine Mercy In My Soul" community in which office was yet situated at Bolton Street. I went there covering my wounds with tissue papers so my fresh wounds would not stick to my pants and shoes. Before the image of the Divine Mercy, probably two or three workers of the community prayed over me.

One of the workers placed his hand over my chest in the heart area (or so I presume because I was closing my eyes); but I felt the warmth of the Hand holding my entire heart. I knew it was the Hand of the Lord Jesus Christ because I had the feeling of a Warm Hand holding my entire heart! I was not healed instantly.

I was still applying ointment after ointment after ointment to the affected areas so that there was only one recurring mother wound left in my ankle in the left leg.

Until the wound healed by itself -- after years!

I had suffered with eczema 12 years in all!

Later in this life, a man of God (let's call him Don who is gifted of prophecy) told me I had a suffering before being used by God for the salvation of sinners. This episode of my suffering was all I could think of when he wrote me the letter. I have suffered so much in my life, to say the least. I was also led to understand that my homelessness God was using for the salvation of sinners. Probably, my sufferings in life are the reasons why the Lord has chosen me.